Homeschooling our kids is truly a huge dream come true for me! My husband and I both had traditional educations and I didn’t know anyone closely who had ever been homeschooled, yet it has just been laid on my heart for the past several years.
With August approaching and the house nowhere near finished, I knew this past fall wasn’t our time. So we sent our oldest, John off to kindergarten and Viv to part-time Pre-K. It was perfect because I needed to put all of my focus into finishing the house, and they loved school! Once we moved in mid-October, I pulled Vivi out to be home with Hank and I full time, and have loved every second of having her here. She loves it too. Her imagination can run wild and we get lots of cuddles in every day.
As Christmas approached, the feeling in my heart that I was supposed to keep John home as well grew a lot stronger. But I’d be lying if I said I didn’t have my doubts. Am I patient enough? (#1 concern!) Am I organized enough? Do I know enough? Am I robbing him of the “school experience?” But to be honest, they didn’t reach too deep. Because thankfully this whole doubt/motherhood relationship thing is something I’ve walked through before. Something we’ve all walked through as moms.
Can I take this tiny, 5lb baby home from the NICU and actually keep him alive?!
Can I seriously be pregnant AGAIN?! ……and AGAIN?! and keep them ALL alive?
Can I suffer one more second through breastfeeding when latching makes me bleed and scream and scare her and cry and want to just say eff it!?!
Can I make it through this entire day after realizing I’m OUT OF COFFEE?!?
Am I a mean Mom?
Am I too old for crop tops?….lolz jk…..but really….asking for a friend…
Time after time I’ve fretted and doubted and thought God MUST have made a giant mistake giving me children….I mean especially after he saw everything I did between 2005-2010….yikes! But time after time He has gotten us through loved, clothed, fed, and then some. His plan for me is to be a mom, I know it. So of course he will equip me for the tasks he sets before me. And He will do the same for you with your sweet babes, whatever the task ahead!
And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose for them. Romans 8:28
Having said that, I don’t know what homeschooling will look like for us exactly, or even if we will do it long-term. And I don’t feel called to know those details….yet.
All I know is that I’m being called to explore learning at home and out in the world with my babes right now. And I can totally do that. We can do that.
Wednesday was technically our first day, if you could call it that. More accurately, the day John would have gone back to school. And aside from lots of errands we had to run, I didn’t really have a plan.
But just as if God was saying “I’ve got your back, let me show you how we’re going to do this” – the first thing out of John’s mouth when he woke up Wednesday morning was: “where is New York?”
This one little question led us down a perfect rabbit trail of states and capitols and landmarks, vacation planning, time and distance, history, intercontinental relations, spelling, sounding out, and reading state names on our U.S. puzzle, counting the states, and so on.
Kids are so inquisitive by nature, and I’m really excited to see where their little imaginations and ideas take us!
Nerf gun fights, does that count as P.E.?
I do want to use a curriculum and have been looking at one specifically for kindergarten. I think this will appeal to John’s orderly nature and desire to achieve measurable goals, as well as give Big John a visual as to our progress. I’m extremely grateful that he is and has always been so supportive of my trying new things!
My plan is to add a curriculum soon. But for now, I’ve just been making a short list of the concepts we cover and saving our work for the kids to show their Dad. Its so special for them to show him what they’ve learned and see how proud he is! And makes me feel like I have my shit together 😉
We’ve only actually done an hour or two of sit down learning over the past few days, which is perfect! Of course, its not always roses when you’re dealing with tiny humans, but I knew that going into this and I’m up for the challenge! I know these little folks. Inside and out. We just get through stuff.
I know God will continue to cultivate patience in me and help me to not only set boundaries with them but maintain them. As well as cultivate a new type of respect for me in them as I take on a new role. And I know it won’t always be picture perfect, but nothing in life is! And the closest thing to perfect for me is experiencing all of it with them.
One lesson I’ve learned thanks to my business is that I don’t always have to be the creator of the wheel. Working smarter rather than harder is. so. real!! There are already so many systems and resources in place, a lot of time for free, that have been created by amazing people who are super passionate and knowledgable about the content they put out. Which allows me to focus on my kids and takes the pressure to do it alllll away. Like, yeah…I don’t need to draw out alphabet traceables by hand.
I’ve already found some killer resources that make my job a whole lot easier, and I’ll be sharing those soon!
Until then, we’ll just be here….planning hypothetical trips to New York to see the Statue of Liberty. Like, for real. Little John is convinced we are going to find a way to make it to New York….by tomorrow….I could use a little bit of that resolve and faith, kids are truly magical.